Archive | July, 2012

Finding motivation

29 Jul

The past five weeks since my husband left have not been the health and fitness success I had hoped they would be.  Granted, I’m eating less meat and smaller portions but the junk is still there!! Not to mention the lack of exercise as well :-X  This is pretty bad considering that 1) I work in the health and wellness industry and 2) For several years I managed to maintain a really good lifestyle that just seemed to stop when I had my daughter.

I need to get it together mentally, if not for myself than for my daughter.  I have pretty good control over what she eats now and her play time, but what happens when she’s older and I don’t?  I don’t want her thinking that sitting around eating junk and barely exercising is ok because mommy does it.  I need to be the better example.  I need to do what I did before and have pre-ready healthy snacks and other things available instead of reaching for a cookie because it’s convenient.  I can get just as much sweetness from a melon as I can a cookie, and I can get fiber with the melon too.

As for the exercise… I like to exercise.  I love how I feel during and after a good session.  It’s just making sure I make time for myself to go.  Reminding myself that it’s not a waste of gas to get there if it’s beneficial to my health.


Night time musings…

14 Jul

This deployment business still has not fully hit me yet.  He’s been gone almost a month and, much like my 4 year old, I keep getting up in the morning waiting for the “come get me” text that I know is not coming.  It’s not that I don’t miss my husband, I really do, I just haven’t really acknowledged that he’s gone for a long time.  It’s been a crazy year for that.

Despite the guilt I’m feeling over this, I suppose it is somewhat better to be in a subconscious state of denial than a blubbering I-can’t-function-without-my-man-at-home mess.  I know there is a middle ground in there somewhere but maybe where I am is the middle ground.  It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I’m denying the reality.  Our daughter just isn’t old enough to understand.

Either way… I’m establishing a routine for us and haven’t varied greatly.  I also need to get my butt back in the gym for mommy time.  Exercising is my zone out time and I need to get back to it 🙂